Fears and Doubts

I know it's too late to change our minds about this whole baby thing. But y'know, i'm starting to kinda have doubts. OK, well maybe not doubts... but a whole lotta fears. I've been hearing so many stories lately about babies that are up all night. Babies that cry all the time. Babies that can't/won't breastfeed. New moms who are depressed. Overwhelmed. Sad. Scared. It seems i'm only hearing the negative stuff to new mommyhood lately... and to be honest, it's kind of freaking me out. I mean, if that's how it is - why do people have babies?? INTENTIONALLY? :) I'm only kidding of course, but there is some truth to my statement. Do they really bring so much joy, that it makes all the heartache, sleep deprivation, painful breasts, and lack of money, well fitting wardrobe & a social life worth it? These are all things that ran through my mind before making the choice of becoming pregnant (yes, this baby was very much planned and well thought out) but now it's really hitting me. What have we gotten ourselves into?!?!?! In just two months, our entire world as we've known it will completely be turned upside down and all around - and as much as I hope and pray it'll be for the better, I'm totally terrified my fears will become reality! And what's worse - as much as i'm terrified i'm gonna hate being a mom, i'm even MORE terrified i'm gonna be a terrible one! Is me writing this blog already setting me up to be a terrible mom? Do good moms actually have this fear before even giving birth? Geez, I hope what i'm feeling is normal. This is scary stuff!